I just don’t know what to do

I don’t know what to do, I keep on replaying traumatic events in my head, I keep in worrying about my past depression and get anxiety attacks over the thoughts, I’m a mess

i don’t know what to do, I need help but I don’t even know how to reach out because I feel like I’m bothering everyone with my shit

im losing interest in the people in my life and want to fade into oblivion, I want to push them all away and just be on my own but at the same time I don’t want to 

I don’t know what to do, I can’t even begin to self diagnose